Alone in the dark

Sitting by my bed,
Everything is no longer the same.
Many words not said,
I had not wanted it to be this way.

Chilli and fries, mixing is not good?
Does it always hurt so much at the end game?
Every minute with a low mood,
In my mind, every scene is on replay.

Telling it to a half-half,
My advisor with no name.
Sharing a difficult moment or a laugh,
I opened up for the first time today.

The perfect lie fell into pieces,
The liar cannot take the blame.
I got cut, feel the pain and winces,
In this mess, I finally cannot stay.

I leave for another land,
To a place where I have no fame.
I pray and wish for a helping hand,
To pull me through one more day.