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I thought I wanted to say it,
The words I held deep in my heart.
Somehow it came out, bit by bit,
An awful start, an awful start.

A pause and apprehension felt,
Words, once out, cannot go back in.
Ice around her heart must first melt,
All other things ends in the bin.

How can I show there's more to life?
Besides shutting out and away.
As heartbreaks are common and rife,
And to look at people who stay.

I will dust it under the carpet,
My feelings that I thought I felt.
Until the time my mind is set,
My expression will be withheld.

I will be around as always,
Silently with you by your side.
To help and hold in unseen ways,
I will wait, my time I will bide.